SHE SMILED IN A BIG WAY...

"Dusk & Summer"

She smiled in a big way, the way a girl like that smiles
When the world is hers and she held your eyes
Out in the breezeway down by the shore in the lazy summer
And she pulled you in, and she bit your lip, and she made you hers
She looked deep into you as you lay together quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

And she combed your hair, and she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than you'd been before
She told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
And she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
She said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

She said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
And you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
Some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough of her to hang on

"Save Your Goodbye"

Excuse me, your heart is in my heart
Hello, you've taken this too far
Am I just a piece you push in your board game?
Have you been laughing all day long?
You like it when it's hard for me to see straight
You make it go on and on and on and on and on

Save your goodbye
You're everywhere I go
You're everywhere I go
You're everywhere I go, go, go

Beg your pardon, you're standing on my love
Hello, have you not had enough?
Am I just a piece you push in your board game?
Have you been laughing all day long?
You like it when it's hard for me to see straight
You make it go on and on and on and on and on

Hey, it's my time to shine
And my sword is trembling
You're back inside my mind
And I can't stop remembering
I say I'm chasing dreams but you know I've been
Running away from, running away from you
Some sort of comfort in your pain
I can't help from taking
No matter how I change
There will be no escaping
I say I'm chasing time but you know I've been
Running away from, running away from you

You say you're busy studying but I know you're home;
You say you're poor but I see the shit you buy;
You say you don't want to rush but I see you running through that door.

F-u-c-k-e-r.

I dont feel for you like I felt for them.
I dont look at you the way I should be;
For someone who is thinking the way I do.

I dont feel for you like I felt for them;
I wouldnt hurt for you.
You deserve a couple lines but you aint no song.

Its called a leap of faith.
Its called giving it a try.
Its called being ready to see it fall to pieces.

IF it does not work.

Its not about the time;
Its not about the meetings;
Its not about what it's meant to be - or not to be.

IT ABOUT
A LEAP
OF FAITH

Its about believing that I am worth it.
Its about that gut instinct.

Im tired of having my every single move under your scrutiny.
Im tired of you gaging whether its a yes or a no

Depending on the way I walk,
The way I talk,
The way I hug you.

ITS A FUCKIN LEAP OF FAITH

And so the fuck what if it doesnt work...
I dont wanna invest a thousand hours for you to measure my value as a human being.
I know I am worth your time...
And by now you should know that too.

But honey,
Thats all pillow talk for some fuck buddies
Who just dont care enough to take the next step.

And honey,
Thats all I need to know;

The bad excuses
And the stares
And the nasty comments.

Cuz I dont love you the way I loved them;
I dont care the way I did;
There aint no butterflies.

SO CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT.

i feel like shit cuz i miss you.
i miss you as a friend.
i wanted you here...

We`ve been in this boat too long to jump ship, haven`t we?
But if you do, I`ll be fine.
And if you don`t, I`ll be happy.

i miss you every step of the way

Why am I fighting for something that just wont last?
Is it your smile? Maybe its the way you kiss me; the way we make love.
Maybe its the way I stare at you.
Maybe its because every time I look at you Im thinking that I want to be with you.
Just one more minute, one more day, one more week...

Why am I holding on to something that just wont last;
To someone that just wont stay?
Im the one whos leaving.
Im the one who will be gone.

Im the reason this is over, one way or the other.

Why am I fighting for something that just wont last?
Theres no damn logical reason.

Why did I cheat? Why did I tell?

WHY CANT WE BE?

And if you cant ever be the same...
If we cant ever be the same...
If you cant kiss me the same,
hold me the same,
make love to me the same....

What are we fighting for?


Wouldn't it be good if
we could hop a flight to anywhere
So long to this life
So much for pretending
Bad luck's never-ending
And now I know that
Too much time I've been spending
With my heart in my hands
Waiting for time to come and mend it

I can't cry anymore

a real woman

a woman knows how to respect and get respected
she wont let someone walk on her feet

she talks the talk
she walks the walk

she know the game
but she doesnt play it.